We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

XX - Live

by Stillife

  • Digital Album
    Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
    Purchasable with gift card

      $5 USD  or more

    You own this


Last Hope 04:42
False light fills my mind And lifewings are cut In fortune's satire I've loosely played my part Once slapped a crying child And gave laughing whore a kiss Claimed filth a beauty Admiring serpent's hiss Imprisoned, weak-willed Calling you, touching them I hate myself, but nonetheless I find excuses again Who am I now When pleasure's a dope? Dreaming of angel With last bits of hope Find me In chains of disgust Find me Where “love” means lust Save me My flesh wants more Save me That's all I'm begging for
The Wait 04:22
Alone... along the silent streets Where shadows strangely fall I smell the rusty burning leaves I'm waiting for the call And then I suddenly forget All that I've kept inside The sadness and regret The years left behind I wait for you to call I'm searching for relief But with every drop of rain I'm loosing my belief
Fragile 03:39
I thought I was not the one To make you quit or go on Still begging on my knees To summon the past Now I'm not the one To turn back time To save a single moment Of your happiness Last kisses are not enough Letters won't make you stop All that dust in the eyes Won't make the hearts forget Running after your train I feel this trail is over for me 'Cause I thought I was not the one To make you go on So full of rainy romance This world fails to survive for us Tender like the old movie Fragile like the finest glass
Remember Me 04:29
When I leave this world Listen to my song Read my rhyme No matter how long I let you kiss my lips For the last time The joys and fears I entwined in these lines Will ease your woe Just open the pages But spill no tears Let it all go Remember me It's all I ever needed Remember me All I suffered for is completed Remember me My hidden thoughts are yours Remember me All I leave on the earth ...is for you
In Memory 03:13
Relief 03:54
The road on which I stand Unnoticed and silent I watch the clouds gathering The wind blows into my face Mixing tears with water And I think that it’s better that way I leave the house at dawn My heart is empty and aching Indifferent and free I walk among the rays of waking sun I touch your hand And when you watch me leaving I smile for the first time Eyes full of hope and Filled with despair (I try to) relieve the pain For which I didn’t care All strings torn and burnt All songs dull and sung And I think that it’s better that way Steps in the rain Breath instead of words The last glance through the dirty window This is my poetry of parting That makes me cruel, calm and so beautiful Relief for both of us but not death Poetry for both of us and no death
Destiny 04:36
Turn away, there's no escape You cannot hide from yourself forever Look around, but don't be afraid This is the face you recall In your dream ...'cause I'm your destiny Don't forget, please don't forget All those days we spent together Far away, over the clouds I'm lost in the abyss of time Since you're gone ...'cause you're my destiny
I will follow you To the edge of the world Where the sun always shines And flowers unfold Just lend me your heart And show me your smile We will shed no more tears There will be no more cry I will give to you All I have in my life Just to make you forget And keep you alive When the stars lead the way Our journey will start Always staying together Never falling apart Whatever you do Wherever you go I'm living for you You are not alone Wherever you go Whatever you do You are not alone I'm living for you
Don’t let the pain dissolve your heart Like lines which never mean to cross Our lives will always be apart We’d never know about the loss Some wicked and resourceful hand Will always put you off my way No ache to feel, no wounds to mend No love, no passion to repay Upon the look in empty sky The star you see is always mine It’s you I’ll never tell a lie It’s me you’ll never drop a line And when our minutes cease to be Days swept like withered autumn leaves Soft darkness falls on you and me With pleasure that it always gives Don't lose your faith And keep my guiding light I know we'll meet one day Yet we are still alive
O you, black lambs three With your crooked horns In the woods you tramped From the early morn On your fiddles you played For our child to hear What sweet music you made For our baby to cheer The owl she hooted And her wings she beat And the goat in his shed He stamped his feet
In The Hut 04:36
The Dog in the kitchen Is baking the pie The Cock in the corner Is milling the rye The Pussy is busy With needle and thread Until she has finished She won’t go to bed The Hen in her boots Is sweeping the floor The new moon is rising In through the door The house is clean now All pretty and dry The matting of stars Unfolds in the sky Sleep, little child Sleep, sleep, sleep Sleep, sleep by my side Sleep, sleep, sleep
You leave, I wait You love, I hate You sleep, I wake You give, I take You smile, I frown You swim, I drown You laugh, I cry You live, I die I fall, you fly I fail, you try I lose, you win I'm out, you're in I stop, you go I fade, you glow I ask, you lie We live, we die You are the light I am the night Forever separated Ongoing overrides You made your mind I was so blind The opposites attracting Ongoing overrides
Shattered 04:52
I don’t believe in empty words Devoid of any reason I never knew the truth could hurt To end another season Misunderstanding and regret Trapped in signs and letters I never thought we could forget Our love became a shadow When all hopes are shattered You turn off the light It doesn’t matter We are leaving tonight So come and take my hand We're going to the land The land of no return Where memories will burn So come, forget your fear All troubles disappear Be ready to depart To the beating of my heart
Timeless 04:34
You may walk in these woods Hungry memories are lurking They won't hurt you While the machine is working They're not afraid When its musical thunder rolls But it generates The unique force of our souls Visible to those full of pain Our little invention has made you special again Invincible, we cure them of silence Our little invention has made us timeless You may stand in the flames Scorching your every day They won't hurt if you ask If you beg her to stay Touch our strings when it hurts To find courage for a new start As they can create The most beautiful heart Visible to those full of pain Our little invention has made you special again Invincible, we cure them of silence Just a little invention, we are timeless
I stood before the door of the old house My eyes full of tears and heart full of hope The wind brought delightful laughter of children And tender evening sun warmed my memories Years had passed and I came back The door opened but no one welcomed me ...only silence The day I was leaving, I showed my friends an arrogant smile Suddenly came the faceless chill It poisoned my belief and hope disappeared I couldn't hide love in my heart because it was too cold I lost my belief, my hope and at last – my love And then came endless days of joy, long years of lies and hate And what have I now? ...only silence The last sparks of the summer, the summer that has passed Are glimmering brightly in the placer of stars In the skies high above, in the waters beneath That are silently lapping under our feet Just an instant in a world of heartlessness So fragile and so strong That at times we are not able to hold ourselves When we soar up high just to fall Now all is gone, but memories and pain Remain untouched... alone again The only thing I have - presentiment of nothing When the moments are fading fast And my presence turns to past Day by day Only the silence of the old house Can reflect true life I live Only the shadows of the old house Can remind me everything, but they won’t forgive


This release includes a live recording during the concerts that took place in the fall of 2018 and were devoted to the XX anniversary of Stillife. New and exclusive versions of your favourite tracks together with unique live energy and sound - this is the band’s first official live album.


released December 27, 2018

Tracks 1-15: Recorded live on stage at "Lincoln", September 28, 2018, Moscow, Russia. Sound recording by Pavel Kholin. Mixed by Stanislav Ivanov. Mastered by Alexey Fedirko.
Track 16: Recorded at "Stillife" Studios, February/November 2018, Rostov-on-Don, Russia. Mixed and mastered by Alexey Fedirko at "Alex Records", November 2018, Burbank, CA, USA.

Music and lyrics by Stillife.
Photos by Victoria Votonovskaya.
Artwork by Bella Bzhukova.

Thanks to our fans and friends, who have supported us through all these XX years. Meet you on the other side!


all rights reserved



Stillife Russian Federation

Life frozen in an instant, or just a life-long instant...

contact / help

Contact Stillife

Streaming and
Download help

Shipping and returns

Redeem code

Report this album or account